I don’t know if this is happening to anyone else, but I have been under the most severe spiritual attack I have ever been in during in my 30+ years of Christian living.
Part of me says, “I cannot go on any longer”. Then the other part of me says, “Oh yes. I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.” Needless to say, I am sticking with the portion of me that rests upon Christ.
Before I became a believer, not only was I a drug addict but I also had the ‘mouth of a sailor’. Nes pas? In moments of anger recently, I have heard words come out of my mouth that have not escaped from it for the past 30+ years! This is in spite of knowing how much it displeases my Heavenly Father!
In spite of all this, however, I do not question my salvation! Instead, I see this as a very intense attack by Satan.
The unfortunate part about this is that it seems as though it never stops. Not for the past ten months. It just keeps going and going. The attack is not only at work, but also at home and even in my sleep at night. I go to bed exhausted and I wake up feeling even more exhausted. It literally feels endless.
I don’t actually know why I’m bothering to post this, as I have not spoken to anyone about it – so you are the ones that I’m sharing this with – why? I don’t know.
I know that when the enemy comes in like a flood God will raise up a standard against him. So I am now waiting for that standard to be raised up on my behalf.
ALL of this began very shortly after beginning a new ministry in my area. I won’t go into details, but let’s just say the ministry is for those people who are literally unable to go to church. I’ll leave it at that.
Your prayers and/or comments would be greatly appreciated.
Let me add a P.S.
My stand against the enemy will never change. Additionally, unless the Lord tells me to, my comments and my posts about IHOP will NOT stop. I will always take a stand against New Age teaching. This is because New Age teaching, which is also at IHOP, is firmly against the teachings of our Lord Jesus Christ. So that’s it for now.